My overall Moto for 2013

"Don't Put yourself in a Race for a Cup you do not want to Win"

Probably because of our age most people I know including myself seem to have a surge in achievement/goal anxiety. Well just because others are doing it doesn't mean that path/route/purchase is right for you.

What do you actually want? Work on that focus on it and forget about everyone else.

In a way I think 2014 will see me more self centered or Focused.

start of a short story....

Chapter One- The Knowledge

I woke up this morning to find that they know everything

There is nothing else to know

I thought about going to speak to them

But it turns out because they know everything they predicted my journey,

By the time I reached downstairs there was a message stating:

Don’t bother coming and the following answers to the questions I hadn’t yet comprised-

1.       No

2.       There was but there is no longer

3.       There is a way but it would take too long and you are going to die before then

4.       Yes you will see her again but she will appear in another form

5.       12 hours

6.       It does hurt yes

7.       If you were 15 minutes earlier on that day your whole life would have been different as you  always suspected

8.       No you will never find him

9.       No you will never fit in it

1.   Yes you can ask for more questions but there is a price.

At this point I thought two things, firstly that they seem to want to get to the point. Secondly, oh shit now I’m going to have to work out the questions or at least where they are based to see if I had submitted the questions in a fashion that they could be recalled.

Then I noticed what was going to become the 3 must annoying letters of the message-

P.T.O

Well I did as you would-

P.S ( the two most annoying letters of the message)

“Don’t bother coming to find us, we know where you are – OBVIOUSLY”

Yeah they managed to end the message on a sarcastic note which if it wasn’t so smugly in italic I would half smiled at, but they knew that didn’t they.

So I waited….

Wrote this one for Oscar RIP blade runner

LEGEND

What pressure it is to be a legend

I’d rather be average

Having people wonder why you said and thought that

Talking about you like you are already dead

That kind of shit must really mess with your head.

So something went wrong that day and everyone says you let them down

But when you did similar behind closed doors before nobody made a sound.

What pressure it is to be a legend

I’d rather sit that promenade out

Sample the joy and lick off some of the cream

But when it comes to accountability I want them to glare at others

Than shake their heads and think their pain was equal to my mothers

 So when you bowed your head and tried to hide away

They wouldn’t let you shelter your face from the public on this darkened day

What pressure it is to be a legend

I’d rather for thy self be proud

Then to be there shaking when the flashes begin

There is no way back for me I would surely have to think

They prodded and skinned me to the very worst brink

So when it comes time for me to speak

I hope that they understand just like them I am just weak.

Miss Laura Made Me This

I pity the Fool

Look at this MAN and I stress the word man, he was in his LATE 30s. Sonic he can really move (this man couldnt) sonic he has an attitude.....

Skirt that I made

Here is one I made earlier. I made this when I was off but didnt manage to upload it.

Dressy Hair

I have actually started to make things with my time off woop woop. Yes its gonna be sooo hard to go back to work but as for now im loving it. Always a fan of cherry prints on anything... more to come

LIVERPOOL

Most of my pics are on my Camera and my card reader is broken! The following is from my phone. So obviously there is the 4 beds in my first hotel room, me with scousebrows and picture of raggas a Jamaican restuarant I was taken to!

Pricey Times

Sorry Andrew but had to...

The Most Boring Text I Have Ever Received....

From Andrew:

The Basic Amazon Kindle will be free next free.

My Response:

Thanks for that life changing information

Green Fingers

Dating website charm....

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RIOTS

There is little doubt that the shooting in Tottenham was wrong. But it doesnt justify what has happened. Once the ritos spread outside of North East London it became nothing to do with the shooting. It became causing trouble because they could. They knew the police didnt have the man power and use what little sense they could to rally against the law. The most important figures in politics were all away. Effectively no one was in charge of the country. Then when the trickled back the Prime minister stated that the police didnt do a good enough job. The Police should never have been put in that position in the first place. People were left to protect themselves. Eventually those taking part in the riots and looting decided that they could do anything they wanted, steal, burning property, attacking police and members of the public.





It sad that those taking part were so poorly educated that they thought it was ok to target small business' as well large business. Thinking cause someone gets up in the morning to keep their small grocery shop open makes them rich shows their ignorance. Alot of the rioters have watched generations of their families not working and do not understand the social responsibility that comes from getting up in the morning and paying tax.


Many of the looters were caught red handed but still pleaded NOT GUILTY. They fundamentally do not understand that there is anything wrong in what they did. They therefore do not see the point of rules in society or understand the result of not having any rules.

It has been suggested that many people living in social housing may be evicted if found guilty of crimes during the riot. I do wonder what they will do in response to this. Most likely turn into bigger criminals. Maybe it will take something so drastic for society to change.

I literally havent made anything in months. Its been work work work. I have actually take pics but due to confidentiality reasons I cant post them til the latest show has gone out....thus is life. Each month has felt like a year were I feel like I have filled every hour when not asleep its been mental even for my normal working standards. I thought Essex was the toughest job in town. It seems others can be just as tough.

ESSEX

Yipeeeeeeeeee

I have finally got a darkroom........ years of mutting about it. I now have both a colour and black and white enlarger. I have all the other bits and bobs as well. All I need is the chemicals. I work right next door to jessops errrr see you later digital!

New Year Rev

This year I plan to take more pictures, thats it nothing about my behaviour just that.

JAN 2011 -first make

Yeah so I made this cake, all the way through making it I had my dad insulting my abilities to bake. This is a man who has never baked a cake in his life. 'you havent mixed it properly' 'how many eggs did you use'. Well it had cinnamon, almond and smarties. The smarties caused him most offence. We I hate one piece gave a piece to my sibilings, one to him and one to my dads friend who was around. As I handed my dads friend his piece he actually said 'You're taking your life into your hands there'. How bloody rude. Anyway there was a piece left that I was going to give to my friend. Only when I came down to the kitchen the next day that piece was gone! Yeah mr negative came back from seconds without even asking.

The Beautiful Alex Bolshakova made this for me...

An early august weekend

Well this is what I did this weekend I made a skirt and little hat...